Friday, April 18, 2008

Gorgeous morning here today. We're supposed to have SNOW this weekend, unfortunately, so I'm really relishing the sun over the lake today! Maybe I'll take a picture and post one today. It really is such a beautiful view we have.

Busy day today-lots of running around town to get things done before the in-laws get here. Our dog needs a bath terribly, so he's getting dropped off as soon as we arrive in town, then the kids get dropped off at therapy, then I take Cece with me to buy her a cute card and some sort of little gift. I'm not good at gifts when they're this little-I mean, she's one! What do you buy a one year old whose only occupation is chewing on everything she lays eyes on?

I've been really contemplating all of the political drama that's been going on. I don't really have strong feelings for or against any of the current candidates. While I was growing up, my parents voted strictly republican-you know, the whole no-abortion, no gay rights reasoning. Which, I am still totally pro-life, but not because of my family or upbringing, but because of my own personal convictions. However, I do not believe any president, republican or otherwise, is going to change a woman's right to have an abortion or a gay couples right to be. I believe that this is the world we live in, and we have to learn to exist within our own beliefs amidst the condition of our world, whatever that may be. I don't feel called to a mission of changing the world to see my own point of view. Diversity is good, for more reasons than I can even think of.

That being said, I am very surrounded by Christian right-wing-or-die folks in Montana. Which I hate. I am absolutely repulsed by the "we're better than everyone else" because we're "Christians", "our way or the highway", "I am a republican because that's what I am told good Christians are" attitude. It is very popular in our conservative state. I should add I am not attempting to make a remarkable political statement here. I am only fed up with the pious attitude of people... I consider myself a Christian, but what does that really mean? It means something totally different to each and every individual. To some it means only attending church every Sunday. Well, I fail even in that category, seeing as how we go when we can manage to get us all out of the house. But the more important matters, the ones people don't see, where do I stand in my own heart? I'll continue this later, after more contemplating. After I read Becky's post All He Asks, I found myself first thinking, Wait! You can't walk away! Then the more I thought about it, I began to wonder what my own response was. Not what I want my response to be but what it REALLY was. I don't really have an answer to that question...

2 comments:

Becky said...

Kelli!
This is such a profound post! Nate and I are conservative, too, but don't line up with every issue and found the dogma of the right hard to take.

I fight my own pious attitudes all the time. I wonder what it is about people that makes us want to feel better than others.

As for my post All He Asks, I mostly walk away, but always I believe. I don't know how to explain that. I always pray. I always am in wonder at my surroundings, but I also know I'm not answering that leave everything question with a yes. I'm trying to be as honest as possible about my faith. I just don't want it to be a covering, a facade.

I do miss the view of the lake.

Kelli said...

"I don't want it to be a covering, a facade."

That's exactly what I am trying to convey. Not very well, I admit. I am reading a book about this. I plan on posting something about it here soon, once I can collect my thoughts on the matter. I also don't want my life to be a facade; I want to be completely, utterly real with people. I want to accept my brokeness, my faults, my sin as a part of what makes me ME. Yet, at the same time, I am constantly fighting everything I consider an imperfection. It's a vicious cycle!